Searching

Painting on canvas | 150x130cm 
Acrylics, dry pastel, charcoal, charcoal pencil

This work is about searching for myself. About thoughts, emotions, curiosity and the quiet obstacles that exist in our own minds. I wanted the painting to hold that feeling of inner movement, when you are trying to understand yourself, but everything is still layered, unclear and constantly changing.

I created the work using layers of acrylic paint. While building these layers, I also made lines and textures in the surface. Later, when I painted over them, some of those marks started to appear again in a very subtle way. They are not all visible from a distance, but when you come closer to the work, you can notice small lines, traces and natural motifs underneath the surface. For me, these nature-like elements are important, because nature has a way of calming us. It becomes almost like a background to the search happening inside the painting.

After that, I used charcoal pencil and dry pastel, adding colour and softer emotional details. I blended some of these materials with my hands, because that direct touch gives the work more closeness and sensitivity. It makes the painting feel more personal, as if the emotion is not only placed on the surface, but felt through it.

For me, the most important question is what feeling this work creates. I want the viewer to feel their own searching in it, to pause, to look closer and maybe ask themselves questions that do not need to be answered immediately.